feelings

moons will rise
and suns will set

tears will fall
and smiles they'll get

people will come
and people will go

hugs will be given
feelings will grow

hearts will be broken
hearts will be fixed

friends will leave
and new ones be picked

those friends will turn to lovers
those lovers will turn to life

before i couldnt love you

the future

I think about the future a lot.. Wondering if i'll be a lonely old lady, waiting for the long days t come to an end and all my pain to fade away. No husband and no life. Trying to figure out where i went wrong..

If i'll be a happy woman with kids that i'm proud of, a peaceful life, a stable bank account, and a husband who would just lie on the floor with me in silence, both of us just enjoying being with eachother..

Or if i'll be the grown-up version of who i am now. A loud, bouncy woman who loves to laugh and enjoy herself. A lady with friends and family to die for and dance as her place to escape and who has a mostly worry-free time just enjoying life as it is.

pain

it's pulling me apart
bit by bit, day by day
it's breaking my heart
i can't stand it

thinking back doesn't help
the hits, the kicks
on my heart on my mind
it won't stop

it's a weight on my shoulders
and it wont disappear
its getting too unbearable
im gonna break

i dont wanna live this life
with all the tears
with all the lies
i cant get away from this pain

no-one knows how much this is killing me, no-one'll understand
i cant stand it
it feels like fire running through my veins
it burns.